Long post ahead..
Haven't had a chance to post recently. Am extremely busy past few days shooting at a private location with little access to my phone. Only managed to finally find some space & time today during set so i can finally ramble my thoughts down..
Exactly 5 days ago I participated in a demo for #TestOfWill2017
Round 6 - As many rounds possible in 7 mins of suicide sprints, 10x 45kg ball toss over shoulders & 8 strict pullups (wearing weighted vest throughout). It does seems fine but i fail to realized i wasn't. The moment when i did the 1st rep for ball toss over shoulders, felt my back aggrevated..I still persisted to complete round 1 but already knew it's pointless because it just don't feel right. If it's a workout I would have stop but this is not..
Dissapointed i am with only myself because I wasn't strong enough to conquer, wasn't fast enough to recover, wasn't prepared enough to be at my best n wasn't smart enough to control circumstances to be in my favor.
For people who thought highly of me, sorry for letting you down.
I will recover and be stronger next time around. Even though there is nothing to proof..No prize or title to win, I only want to do my best at every single thing. The fact I wasn't able to breaks me down inside.
6 May 2017- The day I got knocked down but also happy to see my mates at their physique competition that night cuz they did so well. Smile for the world on the outside but feeling pain on the inside. That's how it did felt like n perhaps that is what I need to become better..
