This year started off with me and the Bakerie boys performing at the Shenzhen midi music festival. Then I went straight back to Hk for the Commercial Radio awards. Obviously I didn't win anything.
I quit my job in the studio around March because I wasn't making any progress, wasn't focused and wasn't offering much help to the company. Nevertheless, I've learned a lot and really appreciated it. Then the hard part came along. I dreamed about not being in school and being self-employed for a long time. I knew it would be tough and I had to go through it. Being broke. No more monthly salary.
It was the annual Hong Kong Film Awards in April. Surprisingly I was nominated and even more surprisingly I won. The first rapper to get that trophy? Weird. I gave the worst acceptance speech ever. Although I'm very honored to be able to do this, but until this day, i still feel that I don't deserve it. My performance on the song was so bad. I seriously would be happier if someone else got it instead.
Then everyone thinks I'm doing good not knowing I'm broke as shit. I was paranoid. I was offered the idea to do my solo album, something I've never got into doing before. I love the idea, I have great songs in my opinion but I still don't know if it would ever work out. I get music production gigs here and there sometimes and I appreciate every single shot at doing it because it made me feel useful. I also got into teaching a bit of music production and I loved it. Being able to share production tips with others is amazing.
I do put out music online once in a while but generally I've faded out after the film awards. I feel like I've missed a lot of opportunities to capitalize on the situation and do more. I then started a production company with some friends and aim to provide more music production services and get into managing.
Tough year. But I'm surviving. Relationship with the family is great. Relationship with my girl is great. Relationship with my friends is pretty alright. The political unrest in Hong Kong in the fourth quarter of the year made me question a lot about my perspectives and why do I feel the way I feel. Next year, I hope to put out more music and get more money. That's the most typical hip hop thing to do, but that's life. I have a huge sleeping problem, I basically can sleep anytime anywhere. This coming year I wanna fix that. To everyone else, hope you had a great year. Hello 2015!
