HI HI TO ALL MY HAPPY ‘TAP” FAMILYYYY ❣️❣️❣️
I haven’t written to you all for such a long time and I do apologize so much for this. I don’t know how TIME FLIES the way it does!
I wanted to share some thoughts on this very momentous and memorable DAY in my life.. I am strolling into the BIG 6 ❤️ today!!! My BRAIN IS EMPTY!!
All I can think of is HOW GRATEFUL I am to the Universe, and to all of YOU, to my LOVING FAMILY, my INCREDIBLE FRIENDS… all this life has brought to me.. that our Planet is so beautiful and there is so much to be thankful and OPEN to.
After 60 years, chasing so many things, experiencing the excitement, ups and downs of almost all of life, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds… and I realize, all I really desire and want, is a SIMPLE SMILE, WARMTH, UNDERSTANDING, A Heartwarming HUG, A phone call, or now, text to say HI… A Healthy and strong Body, LOTS & LOTS of LAUGHTER, CONNECTION, COMMUNICATION, LOVE, LOVE & LOVE. No matter what circumstances we run into, Rain, Thunder, Protests, Covid, it is absolutely possible to realize that ALL THINGS MUST PASS, and through the most difficult or most ravishing times, we can find comfort in holding the hands of those loving people around us. I know there is still so much more to learn while we are so BLESSED to be a VALUED GUEST on this Earth for such a fleeting moment. I feel I must keep on learning and evolving to be the BEST person I can be.
I realize that when we are born, we need so much love, feeding, nurturing, understanding, and a lot of HELP! When we get old, we need so much love, feeding, tolerance, patience, understanding, and a lot of HELP! There is no difference in the VALUE of each end of the stick. Just what we can do in between that will make ALL the difference and we all have a CHOICE in how we want to write our own, unique, wonderful, heartfelt STORY.
LIFE can be, and IS SO VERY BEAUTIFUL. The Beauty I used to understand doesn’t hold any meaning for me anymore.. The BEAUTY I HOLD TRUE is the LOVE & BEAUTY inside of ME and all the surroundings of the amazing Mother Nature. Each of us, is handcrafted so very intricately, to have all the same physical features, yet not a single one of us is a duplicate of another. We all have a brain to think, yet every single one of us does not think like any other. We ALL have a PATH, yet every one of our paths is different from each other. But we are ALL meticulously woven together, our lives, our actions are all intertwined. Every action we take, affects another. Every tree, every flower, mountain, sea, sky, clouds, animals, and all beloved creatures. We are the unique creatures, blessed with thinking, speaking & doing. I feel I must do everything I can to HONOR this special GIFT from Mother Nature. Beauty is DEEP & ROOTED & everywhere we look. I’m going to embrace everything PapaGOD & the Universe has given me.
I’m SO GRATEFUL for making it this far, in GOOD HEALTH, GOOD SPIRITS, GOOD MIND & BODY. Every day is a SURPRISE to me. Every moment is truly a BLESSING and ever so sacred. I will continue to live each BLESSED day with an open heart, open mind, and open SPIRIT. I will live each day as HIGH as I can go, no matter how low I feel. I will enjoy growing old GRACEFULLY, and make a conscious effort to do and BE the BEST I can be EACH SINGLE DAY, CHERISH & take care of it like a RARE and Beautiful JEWEL, which LIFE & our EARTH IS.
Today I spend with my LOVING FAMILY & MY FRIENDS. Well.. one loving Family is missing and in Mainland, now resting, but working VERY HARD! I’m so proud of Lam because we are so happy that he gets to SHARE his music with a WHOLE NEW GENERATION of wonderful, talented singers. It’s a GREAT BLESSING to sing with these enthusiastic Artists who can make a great difference in the world with their bellowing voices. I watch every episode with great anticipation and I hope you will too! All the Artists create their own Magic with each song & emotions!
I also would like to share with you my real and Authentic physical & Spiritual SELF!!! I just want to BE TOTALLY and ALL OF what is TRULY ME! I hope you all can accept me as I AM, white hair with my cutey wrinkles! Lam really enjoys it cos now I can keep him COMPANY & look like TWINS! I don’t know where my WHOLE self will go from here.. but I’m really going to look forward to all the natural progressions my mind and body will be taking.. just like Mother Nature.. she accepts all that comes to her and embraces it all…just as it is!
I wonder if I can remotely understand the meaning of life by now? I want to TAP (THINK ACTPOSITVE) at all times making others HAPPY & be HAPPY to see others HAPPY! I understand there is NO RIGHT or WRONG in any of our actions whether positive or negative, but only the divine consequences of those actions we choose. I feel we are BLESSED to be here with a DIVINE PURPOSE which is to help ourselves & each other. To preserve and maintain this amazing PLANET & EARTH. To evolve ourselves, & each generation, so they can pass the baton and also evolve the Earth! I also feel we are definitely NOT ALONE! NEVER! We are always in the SOOTHING, EMBRACING arms of the Divine Source Universe, and when we feel we don’t know where to turn, PapaGOD is ALWAYS there for us, ready to give us whatever we want in the deepest of our hearts with the utmost sincerity. Everything we receive is in its Divine Timing, and Divine Perfection.
With that.. HAPPYNESS & GREAT HEALTH TO ALL OF YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS and LOVE YOURSELF as well as LOVE ALL THOSE and EVERYTHING AROUND YOU! BELIEVE ME.. ALL WE HAVE and NEED IS LOVE!!!!
MUAH MUAH MUAH with 60 YEARS OF BLESSINGS! YEHHHHHH!!!!
ALL MY LOVE!! SALLY!!!
PS. I had a great wonderful party with best of FRIENDS TONITE❣️❣️ Came home and took some selfies to shock all of U❣️❣️ My HAPPY DECADE HAPPY 6💜 GIRL (⁉️) look❣️❣️ CHEERS EVERYONE❣️❣️❣️🌹🌹🧚🏽♀️🧚🏽♀️🧚🏽♀️
HI HI 快樂的 “TAP” 大家庭 ❣️❣️
已經很久沒有給大家寫信了,對此我深表歉意。不知道時間怎麼就這樣過去了!
我想在生命中這個非常重要和難忘的日子和大家分享一些想法和感觸 —— 今天我悠然邁入了以6字開頭的歲月!! ❤️ 大腦一片空白!!
我所能想到的是對上天,對你們每一位,對親愛的家人,對不可思議的朋友們 —— 對生命所贈與我的這一切 —— 所懷有的深深感激。我們所生活的星球如此美麗,實在有太多太多需要去感謝、感激,去敞開心扉擁抱。
60年過去了,我也曾經追逐過很多,在每月每週每日每分每秒中,經歷了生命可能賦予的幾乎所有激動和起落,而如今我意識到,自己真正渴望和想要的,只是一個簡單的微笑,溫暖,理解,一個暖心的擁抱,一通電話,或者現在更流行的,問好的一條短信.. 一個健康強壯的身體,很多很多笑聲,連結,交流,愛,愛,以及,愛。無論我們遇到怎樣的狀況 —— 下雨、雷電、抗議、疫情,一直要謹記於心的是,無論如何,這一切終將過去;在最困難或最開心的時刻,我們都能握住身邊人的手,並從中找到最大的安慰或共鳴。能得此幸運,在如此短暫的一剎,來到地球做她的尊貴旅客,我知道還有太多東西需要學習,感覺自己必須不斷學習成長,才能成為最好的自己。
我也意識到,出生的時候,我們需要很多愛,需要被餵食物,需要關懷、滋養、理解,需要很多幫助!變老後,我們也需要很多愛,需要被餵食物,需要寬容、耐心、理解,需要很多幫助!人生兩端的價值,並沒有任何分別。只有在中間段,我們能選擇如何去書寫屬於自己的,獨特的,精彩的,發自內心的故事;而也正是在中間段所做的選擇,決定了我們會有怎樣的人生。
生活可以,也確實是非常美麗的。我曾經所理解的美,對於現時的我而言,已經沒有了當初的意義。現在,我所抱持的真正的美,是內心的愛與美,以及令人驚嘆的大自然所賦予的,環繞著我們的一切。每個人都好似複雜精緻的手工藝品,雖然有著相同的身體特徵,但沒有一個人是另一個人的複製品。我們都有大腦可以思考,但每個人和其他人想的都不同。我們都有要走的人生之路,但每個人的道路各不相同。然而,大家又被如此精心地連結在一起,彼此的生活和行為交織在一起。我們採取的每一個行動,都不可避免地影響著他人,甚至影響著每一棵樹,每一朵花;影響著山、海、天空、雲朵、動物,和所有其他可愛生靈。我們是獨一無二的存在,有福氣擁有思考、講話和行動的能力。所以我感覺自己必須盡所能去致敬和珍視這份來自自然的特殊禮物。美深深根植於我們目光所及的每處。我將擁抱上天和世界贈與我的一切。
我很感激人生走到了這裡,健康,精神,頭腦和身體都很好。每一天對我來說都是驚喜。每一刻都是充滿祝福和神聖的。我將繼續以開放的心靈、開放的思想和開放的精神去過好每一天。我會盡力去把每天過到最好,儘管有時候也會感覺低落。我將享受優雅地變老,有意識地努力在每天做到自己的最好,也成為最好的自己,珍惜和照顧匆匆而過的每日,好似它們是稀有又美麗的珠寶;而其實,生命和地球也的確如此。
今天我會和我愛的家人們和朋友們一起度過。對的,一位有愛家人不在這裡,他在內地,現在有空休息一下,但一直都在非常努力地工作! 我為Lam 感到驕傲,因為大家都非常開心他有機會同新一代如此出色、才華橫溢的年輕歌手們分享他的音樂。與這些富有激情的藝術家們一起唱歌是一種巨大的幸福;年輕一代的歌聲將給這個世界帶來改變。每一期節目我都有充滿期待地觀看,希望你們也會看!所有的藝術家們都在用每首歌和感情創造著自己的魔法!
我也想和你們分享真實的自我——外在與內在,容貌及心靈!!! 我只想做完完全全的,真正的自己!希望你們能夠接受這樣的我,白頭髮,和可愛的皺紋! Lam 很喜歡我這樣,因為現在我可以和他作伴,我們看上去像雙胞胎! 我不知道我的整個自我會從這裡走向何方,但對接下來身心將會經歷的所有自然旅程,我真心期待… 就好像大自然一樣,她接受並擁抱一切如它們本初的樣子!
我好奇自己現在是否可以算作大概開始理解人生的意義呢?我想做TAP (THINK ACTPOSITVE),隨時通過正面積極的思考和行動為他人帶去開心,而看到他人開心也會令我感到開心!我明白我們的任何行為,無論是積極或是消極的,都無關對錯;只是,不可避免的,選擇的行為都會帶來相應的結果。我感覺帶著神聖的目的來到這裡是一份福祉,而這個目的就是助人助己,是保護和維繫這個不可思議的星球,是持續進化發展自己和每一代人,這樣他們就可以繼續把進化地球的接力棒傳遞下去! 我也感覺到我們絕對不是孤獨的!從來都不是!我們一直都被上天撫慰著,擁抱在臂膀中。當感覺不知道如何走下去,上天總會在我們身邊,以最大的誠意給予我們內心深處最渴望的所有。我們得到的一切都有它神聖的時間表,都遵循著神聖的完美安排。
以上… 祝愿大家永遠幸福開心健康,愛自己,愛周圍的所有人,愛周圍的一切!相信我… 我們所擁有的和需要的一切,就是愛!!!!
MUAH MUAH MUAH with 60 YEARS OF BLESSINGS! YEHHHHH!!!!
ALL MY LOVE!! SALLY!!!
PS. 今晚我和最好的朋友們開了最棒的Party ❣️❣️❣️ 回到家後拍了幾張自拍,肯定會驚到你們 ❣️❣️❣️ 我的快樂第6個10年 💜 GIRL (⁉️) look❣️❣️❣️ 大家乾杯 ❣️❣️❣️🌹🌹🧚🏻♀️🧚🏻♀️🧚🏻♀️
to write love on her arms 在 Red Hong Yi Facebook 的最讚貼文
Just read news about Chester Bennington of Linkin Park's passing. Their songs bring back memories of my high school days. I'm even more heartbroken to learn that Chester died by suicide. I have gone through times when it seems like I would never get out of the never ending downward spiral of negativity in my head, but like skies above us - there's always blue skies when we rise above the clouds.
Quoting artist Cherry Dollface, "While I cannot ever tell another human how to live or not to live, I can tell you that if I had of gone down the suicide road, I would have missed out on a lot of great life. I wouldn't have found my love. I wouldn't have traveled the world. I wouldn't have gotten to squeeze my niece and nephews. I wouldn't have connected with all of you beautiful souls. And while it's not always helpful to hear that it gets better... it really is the truth in most cases. If you are struggling and you feel alone, you aren't. Reach out. Talk to someone-- anyone. Even if you need to call a hotline and cry to a stranger, do it. There are still so many beautiful things in this world that you haven't seen. I promise. 🖤🖤🖤
And if you are super happy and having a wonderful time in your life, don't forget to look around you. Pay attention to other humans struggling and help them. Be kind."
For help:
Suicide Prevention Hotline
1-800-273-8255
Visit To Write Love On Her Arms.
to write love on her arms 在 Amykaku 愛咪碎碎唸 Facebook 的最佳解答
從家人客人惹爭議的鰻魚飯
到今天臉友轉貼癌末小童的影像記事
百感交集的現在 心情莫名低落
中午用餐時間點開記事文章後
盈眶的眼淚沒停過
上班空檔想起一陣鼻酸
只想快點下班直奔回家
抱抱我的寶貝
因為看到別人痛徹心扉的失去
才知道自己理所當然擁有的一切 何等珍貴
活在同一個時空下 有緣做親人的每分秒
好好珍惜都來不及了
誰還計較是家人還是客人
沒人天生就是好父母
陪著孩子成長的一路上都是修行
把教養方式放到網路上卻被公審
應該也是對方始料未及的
相信有智慧的大家有辨別是非的能力
我們能做的不是傳播錯誤示範的影片
而是想想自己是不是也在無意中傷害過孩子
然後給孩子一個緊緊的擁抱
告訴他 你真的好愛他
#愛咪碎碎念
#育兒點滴
Two months. Two months since I've held you in my arms, heard how much you loved me, kissed those sweetie "pie" lips. Two months since we've snuggled. Two months of pure absolute Hell.
I've wanted for a long time to write a little about Nolan's last days. His last few days shined with how amazing my son is. How beautiful he is. How he was made of nothing but pure love. This may be long, but bear with me, it's agony unlike any other.
When I brought Nolan to the hospital for the last time, I knew there was something else wrong other than just a lingering case of C-DIFF. I just knew, and strange enough, I think he did too. He hadn't eaten or drank anything in days and was continually vomiting.
On February 1st we were sat down with his ENTIRE team. When his Oncologist spoke, I saw the pure pain in her eyes. She had always been honest with us and fought along side of us the whole time, but his updated CT scan showed large tumors that grew compressing his bronchial tubes and heart within four weeks of his open chest surgery. The Mestatic Alveolar Rhabdomyosarcoma was spreading like wild fire. She explained at this time she didn't feel his Cancer was treatable as it had become resistant to all treatment options we had tried and the plan would be to keep him comfortable as he was deteriorating rapidly.
After a while, I composed myself and went into Nolan's room. He was sitting in "Mommy's Red Chair" watching YouTube on his Tablet. I sat down with him and put my head up against his and had the following conversation:
Me: Poot, it hurts to breathe doesn't it?
Nolan: Weeeelll.... yeah.
Me: You're in a lot of pain aren't you baby?
Nolan: (looking down) Yeah.
Me: Poot, this Cancer stuff sucks. You don't have to fight anymore.
Nolan: (Pure Happiness) I DONT??!! But I will for you Mommy!!
Me: No Poot!! Is that what you have been doing?? Fighting for Mommy??
Nolan: Well DUH!!
Me: Nolan Ray, what is Mommy's job?
Nolan: To keep me SAFE! (With a big grin)
Me: Honey ... I can't do that anymore here. The only way I can keep you safe is in Heaven. (My heart shattering)
Nolan: Sooooo I'll just go to Heaven and play until you get there! You'll come right?
Me: Absolutely!! You can't get rid of Mommy that easy!!
Nolan: Thank you Mommy!!! I'll go play with Hunter and Brylee and Henry!!
The next day he was resting, as he slept most of the days after. We had Hospice on board, all his IV medications, even his DNR signed. (I cannot explain to you what signing an Emergency Responder "Do Not Resuscitate" order for your angelic son feels like. ) When he woke up we had the van packed and I had his shoes in my hand to take him home for the evening. We just wanted ONE more night together. But as he woke, he gently put his hand on mine and said "Mommy, it's ok. Let's just stay here ok?" My 4 year old Hero was trying to make sure things were easy for me....
So in between sleeping for the next 36 hours, we played, watched YouTube, shot Nerf Gun after Nerf Gun and smiled as many times as we could. An hour or so before he passed he even filled out a "Will"! We laid in bed together and he sketched out how he wanted his funeral, picked his pall bearers, what he wanted people to wear, wrote down what he was leaving each of us, and even wrote down what he wanted to be remembered as... which of course was a Policeman 👮🏻
About 9:00pm we were watching YouTube in bed (Peppa Pig actually) and I asked Nolan if I could get in the shower, as I was not allowed to leave him and Mommy had to be touching him at all times. He said "Ummmm ok Mommy. Have Uncle Chris come sit with me and I'll turn this way so I can see you". I stood at the bathroom door, turned to him and said "Keep looking right here Poot, I'll be out in two seconds". He smiled at me. I shut the bathroom door. They said the moment the bathroom door clicked he shut his eyes and went into a deep sleep, beginning the end of life passing.
When I opened the bathroom door, his Team was surrounding his bed and every head turned and looked at me with tears in their eyes. They said "Ruth, he's in a deep sleep. He can't feel anything". His respirations were extremely labored, his right lung had collapsed and his oxygen dropped.
I ran and jumped into bed with him and put my hand on the right side of his face. Then a miracle that I will never forget happened....
My angel took a breath, opened his eyes, smiled at me and said "I Love You Mommy", turned his head towards me and at 11:54 pm Sgt. Rollin Nolan Scully passed away as I was singing "You are My Sunshine" in his ear.
He woke up out of a coma to say he loved me with a smile on his face! My son died a Hero. He brought Communities together, different occupations, made a difference in people's lives all around the world. He was a warrior who died with dignity and love to the last second.
All Nolan ever wanted to do was to serve and protect others, he did just that all the way up to his last breath and continues to do so every day. He loved his family fiercely and everyone of his "friends"!
I look at everything he accomplished in 4 short years and can only think of what he could've accomplished with a longer life. But sadly because of Childhood Cancer (Rhabdomyosarcoma to be specific), the world and our family will miss out on someone so full of love, who just wanted to protect and serve. We HAVE to do better with funding, research, treatment options. Below is a picture that seemed to grab everyone's attention because my son was terrified to leave my side, even as I showered.
Now I'm the one terrified to shower. With nothing but an empty shower rug now where once a beautiful perfect little boy laid waiting for his Mommy.