Blog 5
Video @8:00 onwards, only if you don’t have time for the full video. HIGHLY, highly, recommended!!!
This video almost made me want to not be Asian lol. Jokes aside, this was just SO AWESOME. I have a new-found respect and admiration for Kanye West. He’s always been kind of weird, and I still don’t agree with all that he’s said and done, but he undoubtedly has wisdom. And I’m SO glad he’s found God. And man, if I could have half of his confidence... I’d be a changed person, I’d be able to do everything I set out to do.
This video reminded me that perhaps we all just have to get lost for a bit to be found again. It’s okay to be lost right now, it’s okay to be unsure of what’s to come, what the future holds. I know that God has the best plans for me.
Regardless of where you put your faith in, I do think it really is important that you anchor yourself to something. For me, like Kanye, it’s in God, and my faith has anchored my soul and soothes my anxieties over the years. And in such an unpredictable industry, anxieties are plentiful. So perhaps my career currently has turned a bit stagnant since May this year, after the release of our 6th album CURATIONS, and this awkward phase is out of my control, but I’m so sure it’s all an opportunity yet again for me to grow. I know my place, and I know that I’m called upon to serve. I know it’s just a labyrinth that I have to walk through, and my life certainly looks different from others that seem “better off” in their careers, or that things are going “smoother”, but it’s only different, and that’s it. My path is meant to be, because my path is uniquely mine.
I could sulk over what I don’t have, or I could just marvel at all the blessings in my life, and keep mining at the gemstones within my soil, in the patch of land I’ve been granted from above. But heck, sometimes I even sulk over what I DO have, which is ridiculous, I know. But I genuinely did. It’s not really about modesty, even when other people give me the credit of that compliment, but it really wasn’t it. I felt like I was cheating, and no matter how hard I tried to justify myself, I felt like a fraud. I felt undeserving. No matter how hard I worked I never gave myself enough credit for it. Stupid 2nd generation rich kid. I’m just a shy, introverted, awkward late bloomer with a ton of insecurities that somehow ended up with a career under the spotlight, on a stage, in front of cameras, with an instrument and a mic. I still have a long way to go, but I’m much MUCH better now, because I am not listening to my inner troll as much anymore. F that troll in my head. (If I was just more like Kanye West, lol) I realized it was never a matter of what I did; it’s a matter of the mind.
State of mind, truly is such a powerful thing, so much more than we realize. Believing in yourself really is half the battle. It’s not about what you have or don’t have, it’s about owning up to who you are, what you have, and where you came from, and making the most out of it and strive to be the best version of yourself - not for the sake of yourself, but for the sake of honoring that higher anchor - God, or your calling, whatever you want to call it.
Hope this helped you too. I’d love to hear your stories. Whatever my stories inspired in you. And I know I write long blogs, I know a lot of you may not like reading so much English. Thanks for trying anyway. I appreciate it 🙂
Till next time. Choose love, bring light.
X Robynn
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